Moments of Sanity

sometimes i have moments where i look out the window, actualize my surroundings and realize: I AM iN OKLAHOMA. what in the freak am i doing in oklahoma? and then, i have moments where i realize my time he is coming to an END. THE END. and i don't have to come back here. ever. well, i will come back to visit my homies, but i mean, thats just for a toO short weekend with my girls. in 5 weeks and one day, this apartment will no longer exist to me. i will never again sit on this couch, or walk my trash .25 miles to the creepy dumpster, or use this awful electric stove. UNREAL! i am sure i will look back on it fondly, and i'm sure once i am gone i will recall memories past in it and miss them, but as of right now- I CAN'T FREAKiN WAiT TO TELL THiS PLACE TO FUCK OFF! however, i definitely need to make it a point to appreciate the people here who don't suck, who i will never forget [for at least a year] , and enjoy every day. because it is going to go fast, no matter how slow it freakin feels. and speaking of which, all the more reason why i need to continue my 3 miles, at least 5 days a week, until aspen.... gotta get my endurance up! know what i'm sayin? ;o)