one more thing...

my friends [namely monica] have been teasing me that i am going to meet the love of my life in oklahoma and not want to come home, or even worse, never come home; and then today, my driver, Mike, from the Cancer Treatment Center of America, made a crack about me finding a cowboy and falling in love- what is this? some sick joke? or even worse- foreshadowing?! my biggest fear is falling in love with my position at the Cancer Treatment Center. I can walk away from a man [i can. shut up. i didn't say i could do it easily, i just said i can.], but i can't walk away from myself... and i really do think i may fall in love with this place; the energy is amazing, the people are amazing, and they are doing incredible things here. You really cannot help but open up your heart and take it all in. It is truely awe-inspiring. And this is all coming from me: the Pessimist [or, as Jamie likes to call me, a realist].

... they do have a center in Philly... but I wouldn't be able to get away with cowboy boots and a big ol' belt buckle out there. Only time will tell... besides, before i fall in love with them, they have to fall in love with me first. True statement.